It’s that time of the year again…when my feet get restless and itchy, and im raring to go. Go where??? Anywhere but where I am. Every year, I go through this life-changing (I wish) question and answer session with myself. It starts and ends with where next…
I guess it is the past which has shaped me in this regard. I have never lived in a single place beyond a stretch of five-six years. Only exception was Chennai for seven years. And, now with my 5th anniversary in Blore looming ahead of me (June 8th), I want to move on. After all there are places to go, people to see.
I have never been comfortable with the idea of “Settling down”, either tied to a single place, or single person. Sounds frivolous, but that’s the way it is. I wonder if I should look at returning to Chennai, its been seven years since I lived there for beyond a period of 7 days. Maybe Hyderabad, I love its malls. Or should I go back to Aamchi Mumbai??? The city that never sleeps? Sadly, the only place which I have a possibility of moving to is Gurgaon. And that’s the one city ill never move to. So, that rules my existing option out.
I was in Indore last week, albeit only for a day, and I loved it. More so because of the amazing food you get there, the fact that its malls look better than most Blore malls and the hang outs are open at least till midnight. And best of all, it is safe to shop around at 1030PM with no escort because the evening has just started. Despite that, I cant imagine living there for beyond a period of a few months…
So where does that leave me? With restless feet. With wandering eyes and a inquisitive mind, it’s a good idea for me to start looking for a different city to live in. To get used to. To set up house in. Till the restless feet strike again
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Monday, May 19, 2008
Some of my favorite lyrics...
Was listening to some hindi numbers a few days ago, and I realized that there were many lyrics which I re-played a zillion times….and so here are some of those
From Ram Teri Ganga Maili
“Ek Raadhaa, Ek Meera Donon Ne Shyaam Ko Chaaha
Antar Kya Donon Ki Chaah Mein Bolo
Ik Prem Deewaani, Ik Daras Deewaani
Ek Raadhaa, Ek Meera ...”
And the last few lines of the same song
“... Ek Raani Ek Daasee, Donon Hari Prem Ki Pyaasi
Antar Kya Donon Ki Tripti Mein Bolo
Ek Jeet Na Maanee, Ek Haar Na Maani”
From Lekin (Yaara sili sili)
The last stanza...
“Pairon mein na saayi koi, sar pe na sayee re,
Mere saath jaaye na meri parchayi re
Bahar ujala hai, andar viranaa”
From Rudaali (Dil Hoom hoom kare)
“Jis tan ko chhua tune, us tan ko chhupaaoon
Jis man ko laage naina, voh kisko dikhaaoon
O more chandrama, teri chaandni ang jalaaye
Teri oonchi ataari maine pankh liye katwaaye”
From Junoon’s Azaadi (Though its a pretty old Doha)
Khudhi ko kar buland itna, ki har taqdir se pehle
Khuda bande se khudh pooche, bataa teri razaa kyaa hai???
From Shree 420’s (Pyaar Hua...)
“Raatein dason dishaon se, kahenge apni kahaaniyaan
Geet hamare pyaar ke, doharayengein jawaniyaan
Mein na rahoongi, tum na rahoge,
phir bhi rahengi nishaaniyaan”
From Satte Pe Satta (Pyaar humein kis...)
(The whole song...but the prologue takes the cake)
“Pyaar mein jab bhi aankh kahin lad jaaye
Tab dhadkan aur bechaini badh jaaye
Jab koi ginta hai raaton ko tare
Tab samjho use pyaar hogayaa pyaare...”
And
“Battiyaan bujhado ki neend nahin aati hai,
Battiyan bujahane se bhi neend nahin aayegee
Battiyaan bujhane vaali jaane kab aayegi…”
From Ram Teri Ganga Maili
“Ek Raadhaa, Ek Meera Donon Ne Shyaam Ko Chaaha
Antar Kya Donon Ki Chaah Mein Bolo
Ik Prem Deewaani, Ik Daras Deewaani
Ek Raadhaa, Ek Meera ...”
And the last few lines of the same song
“... Ek Raani Ek Daasee, Donon Hari Prem Ki Pyaasi
Antar Kya Donon Ki Tripti Mein Bolo
Ek Jeet Na Maanee, Ek Haar Na Maani”
From Lekin (Yaara sili sili)
The last stanza...
“Pairon mein na saayi koi, sar pe na sayee re,
Mere saath jaaye na meri parchayi re
Bahar ujala hai, andar viranaa”
From Rudaali (Dil Hoom hoom kare)
“Jis tan ko chhua tune, us tan ko chhupaaoon
Jis man ko laage naina, voh kisko dikhaaoon
O more chandrama, teri chaandni ang jalaaye
Teri oonchi ataari maine pankh liye katwaaye”
From Junoon’s Azaadi (Though its a pretty old Doha)
Khudhi ko kar buland itna, ki har taqdir se pehle
Khuda bande se khudh pooche, bataa teri razaa kyaa hai???
From Shree 420’s (Pyaar Hua...)
“Raatein dason dishaon se, kahenge apni kahaaniyaan
Geet hamare pyaar ke, doharayengein jawaniyaan
Mein na rahoongi, tum na rahoge,
phir bhi rahengi nishaaniyaan”
From Satte Pe Satta (Pyaar humein kis...)
(The whole song...but the prologue takes the cake)
“Pyaar mein jab bhi aankh kahin lad jaaye
Tab dhadkan aur bechaini badh jaaye
Jab koi ginta hai raaton ko tare
Tab samjho use pyaar hogayaa pyaare...”
And
“Battiyaan bujhado ki neend nahin aati hai,
Battiyan bujahane se bhi neend nahin aayegee
Battiyaan bujhane vaali jaane kab aayegi…”
Friday, May 16, 2008
Its a man's world after all...
Ive always believed that its a man's world only to the extent that the woman makes it so, and women who keep cribbing about the "old boys club" and such are probably not trying hard enough. I also believed that while one's background influences beliefs and views, one should not judge the person by their history, coz they may have evolved after that
But of late, my views are changing... and how!
First i end up with an absolute nincompoop on my team who has yet to learn common sense. He has the bloody gall to tell me to my face that women should not be allowed to drive. And that they should be asked to take two driving tests.On one hand, i applaud his honesty...he had no qualms articulating what most men chortle about and discuss in that old boys club. On the other hand, i have to wonder at his foolishness that he makes such a statement to his direct boss who incidentally happens to be...well...me!!! But then, a closer look at his background - he was born and brought up in a small town, and talks small town. Any wonder if he thinks the same way??? Normally, id be ashamed of taking that line of thought (My sense of objectivity usually kicks in)...But now i find myself thinking, why should i apologize for one generalization about small town men when that B$%^&^& made a sweep judgement for all women??
Second was the clincher... In the middle of a discussion in office, one of my bosses(and thats the sad part)is discussing the work of three female colleagues and looks up and says "sorry, but the truth is that all the women in our office are high maintenance". If thats the example of professional attitude, i wonder what sort of a professional firm im working in. I heard the statement, and looked up sharply, to which he amended the statement to "the women we were discussing". Sorry boss, no good. Your small mind shows through neverthless. This from a man who claims to all and sundry to believe in an equal workplace???
And the third was an observation put together over a period of time. We do not have significant female representation in our hierarchy. And recently, i had a conversation which revolved around this topic (i blogged this in the one on the corner cabin)
It is the sad truth. My male colleague+marriage = Settling down, Me + marriage = Slow career which will probably break permanently in a while... Aint it true? Life is a bitch,which is ironical, coz its a man's world after all!!!
But of late, my views are changing... and how!
First i end up with an absolute nincompoop on my team who has yet to learn common sense. He has the bloody gall to tell me to my face that women should not be allowed to drive. And that they should be asked to take two driving tests.On one hand, i applaud his honesty...he had no qualms articulating what most men chortle about and discuss in that old boys club. On the other hand, i have to wonder at his foolishness that he makes such a statement to his direct boss who incidentally happens to be...well...me!!! But then, a closer look at his background - he was born and brought up in a small town, and talks small town. Any wonder if he thinks the same way??? Normally, id be ashamed of taking that line of thought (My sense of objectivity usually kicks in)...But now i find myself thinking, why should i apologize for one generalization about small town men when that B$%^&^& made a sweep judgement for all women??
Second was the clincher... In the middle of a discussion in office, one of my bosses(and thats the sad part)is discussing the work of three female colleagues and looks up and says "sorry, but the truth is that all the women in our office are high maintenance". If thats the example of professional attitude, i wonder what sort of a professional firm im working in. I heard the statement, and looked up sharply, to which he amended the statement to "the women we were discussing". Sorry boss, no good. Your small mind shows through neverthless. This from a man who claims to all and sundry to believe in an equal workplace???
And the third was an observation put together over a period of time. We do not have significant female representation in our hierarchy. And recently, i had a conversation which revolved around this topic (i blogged this in the one on the corner cabin)
It is the sad truth. My male colleague+marriage = Settling down, Me + marriage = Slow career which will probably break permanently in a while... Aint it true? Life is a bitch,which is ironical, coz its a man's world after all!!!
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Whew. What a week…
I’ve had a very hectic two weeks…Been in Blore, Hyd, Blore, Hyd, Delhi and Blore…The amount of traveling I have done seems to have been endless…and working 14 hour days have become the norm (and I mean effective 14 hours!)…
Life has become more interesting because of the travel. One aspect is that I get to compare airports within a shortspan, and Hyd definitely takes the cake…Another is I think ive actually enjoyed the brainwork of keeping up with different people, different surroundings! And to top it all, I haven’t really lost my cool in certain situations in the past two weeks where normally I’d have blown my top, both professionally and personally.
And, the not so great part, is that the fatigue is catching up with me…I hope it doesn’t set in for a couple of weeks yet. I still have traveling to do next week too – to exotic MP!!! In the past 48 hours, ive had insomnia, muscle pulls in both arms and legs, pretty bad stomach cramps, headaches and eye strain…and im not mentioning the mental torture… I still survived…I do think I need to get a health check done though. Ended up breathless again today, even though it was a relatively easy day with no strenuous physical activity…
But all in all, an incredible week. Tiring in parts, refreshing in others. I learnt what my personal boundaries were, as well as how professionally capable I was. Screwed up some on the job, and some off, but no regrets…it is all in the game, and if I don’t win it, ill learn how to play it better…
Going good on the blog promise thus far…let me see how much I keep this up
Life has become more interesting because of the travel. One aspect is that I get to compare airports within a shortspan, and Hyd definitely takes the cake…Another is I think ive actually enjoyed the brainwork of keeping up with different people, different surroundings! And to top it all, I haven’t really lost my cool in certain situations in the past two weeks where normally I’d have blown my top, both professionally and personally.
And, the not so great part, is that the fatigue is catching up with me…I hope it doesn’t set in for a couple of weeks yet. I still have traveling to do next week too – to exotic MP!!! In the past 48 hours, ive had insomnia, muscle pulls in both arms and legs, pretty bad stomach cramps, headaches and eye strain…and im not mentioning the mental torture… I still survived…I do think I need to get a health check done though. Ended up breathless again today, even though it was a relatively easy day with no strenuous physical activity…
But all in all, an incredible week. Tiring in parts, refreshing in others. I learnt what my personal boundaries were, as well as how professionally capable I was. Screwed up some on the job, and some off, but no regrets…it is all in the game, and if I don’t win it, ill learn how to play it better…
Going good on the blog promise thus far…let me see how much I keep this up
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
For a corner cabin...
Well...thats it. Its official. Im a rat. in the rat race...
How did i come to the conclusion???
Well, for the past few days, ive been working out of cabins in delhi and blr, which are home to an exalted few...Consulting folks would appreciate the meaning of a cabin, and the men (well, sad truth is, there aint no women) in suits...
The more i sit in a cabin, the more i want one for myself. And i had this conversation with a partner today which went on these lines...
Him: So,you are the type who works morn to noon, 24 hours a day huh???No life, no family...intending to stay single for the next 10 years kya...
Me: (Normally i would have taken off for his intrusion in my life, but was in a mellow mood)...Kya karen sirjee, yeh Firm hi aisa hai...if i want a personal life, its at the cost of a career, aur cabin milna hai tho.....But then, you never know...jo hoga so hoga
Him: Not really, all u need to do is slow down....
Me: Slow down or not, with the exception of one lady, who is married, is there any one beyond director level in this firm
Him: Nahin hain kya????
Me:Ha...thats the point...this place is unfriendly to women
Him: gives me a weird look and changes subject
Now the logic of all this conversation was, that it got me thinking that its a great quandry in life...If i had been male, and this conversation happened, it would have been more on the lines of "teri biwi tera khoon kardegi", and no mention of slowing down...
Coming back to the cabin...As i spoke to him, i made a mention of wanting my own cabin, and a little later it hit me... i really want That Cabin!!! Well thats one quandry out of this window...whether here or elsewhere, i really want that cabin... its upto me to figure out how to do it...
And as for a corner cabin, i assume thats what ill want in a while from getting the cabin...after all those are the top dog's picks
Well, here comes the rat...(sing in Mendehlson's wedding march tune)
Tra-la-la-la
How did i come to the conclusion???
Well, for the past few days, ive been working out of cabins in delhi and blr, which are home to an exalted few...Consulting folks would appreciate the meaning of a cabin, and the men (well, sad truth is, there aint no women) in suits...
The more i sit in a cabin, the more i want one for myself. And i had this conversation with a partner today which went on these lines...
Him: So,you are the type who works morn to noon, 24 hours a day huh???No life, no family...intending to stay single for the next 10 years kya...
Me: (Normally i would have taken off for his intrusion in my life, but was in a mellow mood)...Kya karen sirjee, yeh Firm hi aisa hai...if i want a personal life, its at the cost of a career, aur cabin milna hai tho.....But then, you never know...jo hoga so hoga
Him: Not really, all u need to do is slow down....
Me: Slow down or not, with the exception of one lady, who is married, is there any one beyond director level in this firm
Him: Nahin hain kya????
Me:Ha...thats the point...this place is unfriendly to women
Him: gives me a weird look and changes subject
Now the logic of all this conversation was, that it got me thinking that its a great quandry in life...If i had been male, and this conversation happened, it would have been more on the lines of "teri biwi tera khoon kardegi", and no mention of slowing down...
Coming back to the cabin...As i spoke to him, i made a mention of wanting my own cabin, and a little later it hit me... i really want That Cabin!!! Well thats one quandry out of this window...whether here or elsewhere, i really want that cabin... its upto me to figure out how to do it...
And as for a corner cabin, i assume thats what ill want in a while from getting the cabin...after all those are the top dog's picks
Well, here comes the rat...(sing in Mendehlson's wedding march tune)
Tra-la-la-la
Saturday, May 03, 2008
Where do i begin...
These are lyrics i love, and dont want to keep googling for it
========
================
========
| Nana Mouskouri on 6Lyrics.com |
================
| Dr. Zhivago on 6Lyrics.com |
Status check...
Havent been blogging in a while now, in fact stopped checking my usual blogroll too... Tinkerbells has blogged with some super news, and ill need to talk to her. Bangalore torpedo stopped blogging, mores the pity.
As for me, its not that ive been run off my feet with work and so havent penned a line or two. More that havent been inclined to do so...From Jan, life seems to have been a flurry of activity. Work. travel. . fun. books. food. Hyderabad. Bangalore. Hyderabad. Bangalore. Some Chennai. Some more Hyd. Some more Blore. Now Delhi. More Hyd. Cell phone. Chat. Did i mention cell phone? Insomnia. More insomnia. IPL. Chennai. Live commentary on sms. More cellphone. More insomnia. My car. Bluetooth. More cellphone.
Life certainly wasnt as happening earlier:)
Am lovin it... and that phrase reminds me that dominoes has released a new stuffed crunch pizza which is absolutely adorably amazing:) On that note, its time for dinner... Ciao
As for me, its not that ive been run off my feet with work and so havent penned a line or two. More that havent been inclined to do so...From Jan, life seems to have been a flurry of activity. Work. travel. . fun. books. food. Hyderabad. Bangalore. Hyderabad. Bangalore. Some Chennai. Some more Hyd. Some more Blore. Now Delhi. More Hyd. Cell phone. Chat. Did i mention cell phone? Insomnia. More insomnia. IPL. Chennai. Live commentary on sms. More cellphone. More insomnia. My car. Bluetooth. More cellphone.
Life certainly wasnt as happening earlier:)
Am lovin it... and that phrase reminds me that dominoes has released a new stuffed crunch pizza which is absolutely adorably amazing:) On that note, its time for dinner... Ciao
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)