The bulls and bears!!!

After what seems to have been an allround depressing day, i decided that i might as well as do it all today. So i did the one thing ive been dreading for months now...

Opened up my trading account...

And discovered that there is always reason for a day to get worse. Quite a difference that...from my normal attitude that things can only get better, a.k.a. there are always five billion people give or take a few million who are worse off than you...

My portfolio results - 30% loss on my mutual fund holdings, 10% loss on equity.

Shocked. Coz i got into the market at 5000 levels of the sensex. And i sustained my profits after that through thick and thin.

But then, the optimist in me (Which surprises me by still being alive) tells me that i should relook and pick more of my stocks at current levels. After all, wasnt it phil fischer (or was it ben graham) who said that you cant time the market if you go for a value pick.

So let me do what i am best at doing...making the best of where i am... My stock picks were known for being spot on a few years ago. I shall revert to type and dig my nose into numbers and data again. After all, the markets down, what better time to enter!!!

Music that makes me want to smile, laugh and cry at the same time!!!

I watched ABBA the movie (a.k.a. Mamma Mia) recently. It revived a lot of memories in me, including some of my fav. lyrics which have made me break out into a smile, laugh outright or go all gooey-eyed. And as i watched the movie, i recalled pieces of the lyrics which do that to me...

• "Don't go wasting your emotion....Lay all your love on me"
• "It was like shooting a sitting duck
  A little small talk, a smile and baby I was stuck
  I still don't know what you've done with me
  A grown-up woman should never fall so easily"
• Chiquitita - the song which i can easily listen to five times in a row...
  "So the walls came tumbling down
  And your loves a blown out candle
  All is gone and it seems too hard to handle"
  "Chiquitita, you and I cry
  But the sun is still in the sky and shining above you
  Let me hear you sing once more like you did before
  Sing a new song, chiquitita"
• "Who found out that nothing can capture a heart
  Like a melody can?
  Well, whoever it was, Im a fan"
• "If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
  You can take the future even if you fail
  I believe in angels
  Something good in everything I see"

The class...

This is one bit of poetry which is a class apart...and ironically, i remembered this when i was mentally reviewing the story of "The Class" by Erich Segal...He uses this poem as a lead-in to Danni Rossi...

I thought the sparrow’s note from heaven,
Singing at dawn on the alder bough;
I brought him home, in his nest, at even;
He sings the song, but it cheers not now,
For I did not bring home the river and sky

- Emerson (From "Each and all")
http://www.bartleby.com/248/151.html

The other one that stays is

No! I am not Prince Hamlet, nor was meant to be;
Am an attendant lord, one that will do
To swell a progress, start a scene or two,
Advise the prince; no doubt, an easy tool,
Deferential, glad to be of use,
Politic, cautious, and meticulous,
Full of high sentence, but a bit obtuse

Que sera sera

When I grew up and fell in love
I asked my sweetheart
What lies ahead?
Will we have rainbows
Day after day?
Here's what my sweetheart said:

Que sera, sera.
Whatever will be, will be.
The future's not ours to see.
Que sera, sera.
What will be, will be.

Missing you

There are the oddest times i miss you... and today was one such day. I wonder how life would have panned out had you been around... Would i be where i am today? Would you look at me and be proud of who i had become, or would you have expected more? Would you have been that strong shoulder i miss, or would you have dominated my life so much that i could not move? Would you have loved the chattering i do, or would you have shut me up? Would i have disappointed you when i fell in love, or would you have loved the guy just because i did? Would i be a different person than who i am today? Would i be more "acceptable" rather than the rebel? Would mom not have lost as much weight? Would sis be so insistently independent?

The first time i heard this poem read out, i remembered you. And everytime i repeat some of these lines, you are the only person i think about.
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Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead,
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
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I wonder...
... I miss you
...I wish you were around

Some good quotes i found...

Albert Camus
"Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend."

"On certain mornings, as we turn a corner,
an exquisite dew falls on our heart
and then vanishes.
But the freshness lingers, and this, always,
is what the heart needs.
The earth must have risen in just such a light
the morning the world was born."

Ella Wheeler Wilcox
Laugh and the world laughs with you,
Weep, and you weep alone;
For this brave old earth must borrow its mirth,
But has trouble enough of its own.


So many Gods, so many creeds,
So many paths that wind and wind,
When just the art of being kind
Is all this sad world needs.

So you think you disappoint me???

I once wrote this word as a response to a comment i had received. Its probably appropriate that i publish it now

Does this sound like you disappoint me???

• I wake up to a face i can see for the rest of my life
• I get a call in the middle of the day just to say hi is how
• I catch myself practicing my "ennama varaya" stance in the middle of office near the coffee machine
• Four out of five times, i think "how did i get so damnnn lucky"...Once, i do think, "how did you get so lucky"...well, i am human right?
• There are times when you are fast asleep and im kicked just looking at you that way
• I am so glad that there is someone around with whom i dont have to defend my romance novel fetishes...
• Somedays, i dont wish to sleep because the day has been perfect
• I wake up thinking that im glad you stuck to me despite the cactus exterior that i showed you

If you still think you disappoint me, please do so all my life:)